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Saturday, November 04, 2006

song of the day: pan wei bo - wo dui tian kong shuo

yup, im going to blog bout this once and just once.
some of you might have know it, im gonna be retain next year.
its good and bad in some ways.

lets start with the bad things 1st.
1) obviously i'll have to waste another year in jc life.
which means i'll treat this year as a sec5, or going to MI.
2) my friends will have to leave me!
im fine with that actually. in fact, i actually only care bout 4 in my class.
3) maybe i'll be looked down upon and thus, losing some friends maybe?
well i duno bout that, i hope it wouldnt happen.
4) less happy times? i guess i should be sad rather than being optimistic bout it.
5) i wont be able to enter NS on time! i hate delays in life, especially a year? =/
6) i'll be losing many things. many many things.

now about the good things?
1) obviously, i'll have another year to build my foundation in j1.
hopefully i make good use of the time and get some very good results.
lets keep our fingers crossed.
2) i'll have time to do some of the things i wanted to do before NS.
things like being on MTV? xD

i think thats all on the positive side?
well, 2006 will be a good year to reflect on i guess.
maybe retaining isnt bad afterall?
is it the truth or am i just consoling myself?
hopefully things turn out fine in 2007.
this coming school holidays, is one which im not excited or looking forward to.
most likely, i'll be working so as not to think about school.
congrats to those who get promoted.
work hard okay? and yes im really jealous.
who would want to face the fact that you'd wasted your 1year in school?
i was really seeing red bout this and couldnt really think straight.
yesterday was considered a real nightmare.
the overwhelming emotions was a real bad experience.
i will never want to experience that again in this lifetime.
the fact i got so angry is that, i was just a few marks away from being promoted!
and that actually cause me a year! 356days man!
why didnt i stay up the night for maths paper?
sigh, i guess we shouldnt look back at time now.
i should be looking forward to JC1 orientation'07 maybe?
and i sincerely apologise for not cherishing my friends.
many occasions this year, i guess i really took many friends for granted.
im really sorry about that.
and what happened actually allow me to know who actually cared bout me.
special thanks to daphne and melanie.
couldnt have make it here without the both of you.
special thanks to shaojun and shengwei.
thanks for showing concern and listening to me.
special thanks to hongwei, andre, danny, zhihe.
thanks for trying to cheer me up. and the games we had.
special thanks to all out there who love me/care bout me.
special thanks to all out there who hate me/enjoy to see me suffer.
couldnt have make it here without you all.
from now onwards, i will be on a new journey to become a brand new me.
to all friends, please continue to move on with me.
study hard and we'll all see the results when we have all grown up.

-just when i needed you most